When you hit the hole, you have to hit it. Then they'll ask why I didn't cut outside. It's because my head's down because I'm trying to get the one or two yards we need. I'll run a certain play - say a '35' - in the first quarter. But then I won't see that play again until the fourth. By that point, the defense is giving us a different look. Then they'll want me to do the same thing even though it's against a different defense. Then, if it doesn't work, they'll wonder why I didn't bounce it outside.
I try not to but I hear and see some of the things that are said and written about me. Someone will tell me that I should be running harder. I'll just say, 'you're right; you're right.' I can't answer everybody and I really can't worry about it. There's nothing I can do about it. You can get real stressed if you keep saying, 'I could have done this' or 'I should have done this.'
I seems like they're putting me in there to make me look bad, but I know they're not. I just want to show them that I can do it when they put me in and give me the opportunity to do it. Hopefully I can do it.
I'm still hearing that I'm too big and that's why I can't gain yards. If you ask any of my coaches, they'll tell you that that's not true. When I went to college, they wanted me at 265; I was 265. Then they wanted me at 260, I stayed at 260 all throughout school. Then when I got here, they wanted me at 250. I've been there ever since. It's not like I balloon up to 300 pounds during the off-season. I'm good with my weight. I don't have a problem with that. People use that as a reason for me not doing well because they can't find anything else.
I got a call from a friend who heard that there was a report that I was going to be cut. It's really kind of funny. People don't know what's going on. It's not like that reporter was up in the coaches' offices with a tape recorder and heard them say that they were going to cut me. It's something else if I hear it from a coach. But hearing it from the outside, I don't even worry about it.
I'm fine right now. I still go out and practice hard. I'm still the same jokester that I've always been. I'm not going to change because these first couple games haven't been great for me. I'll be fine.