Player Diary

I think this has been a typical rookie year for me so far. You come in and you have a lot on your shoulders, but you just have to work through it. If you have a couple mistakes, you just have to work through them. I had a mistake and I worked through it. You have to make yourself stronger, punish yourself a little bit and get a little better every day.

After I lost that fumble early in the year, I really punished myself. I kept a ball in my hands at the house high and tight. I just held the ball different ways to get used to holding the ball. That's just how I punish myself. I did that in college and it helped me out tremendously.

The other running backs here have helped me out tremendously. They teach me everything about the whole offense. Then when I had that fumble, everyone was just like picking me back up and telling me that everything was going to be all right. They just told me to play my game and hold onto the ball. After a while I was tired of hearing that; I knew what I had to do when I came back. They really forced that on me. I know I have a job and I have to secure it.

It takes time and everything happens for a reason, but when I was out those weeks it was tough. I was just on the sideline going through everything mentally and visualizing everything. That's what you have to do when you're not in there. You want to always be prepared for your next time.

I take pride in the kickoff return part of my job. The guys up front have helped me out and given me a lot of confidence to get this thing going. I think we have a lot of success to come.

There are a lot of reasons for the success there. First off, it's just reading blocks. That's just what a back does. Then there's timing, which comes with that. It just comes down to catching the ball, getting behind your blockers and making a move off them. Then I just try to use my speed after that. Everyone's working on their job to get their man down or blocked. After that happens the only thing we can have from there is success. We're working on putting that all together.

I lost the big (return) against Dallas. I saw it as I was turning the corner. I saw the ref throw the flag, but I couldn't really do anything about it so I kept running. A lot of things happen, but it really didn't like look a holding call (on Kevin Boss) to me. I don't blame anyone or anything for that. Like I said, we have a lot of success to come. If everybody does their job on the kickoff return team I think we'll be back to the end zone sooner or later.

Once you see that flag it's such a downer. But you just have to keep running and hope it's on the other team. You can't do anything about it. The ref saw what he saw so you just have to go along with it. The holding call didn't matter; it was away from the play. So if we didn't have it we would have had success. We're just going to try to do that week in and week out.

I was so excited once I found out I was going back into the lineup. Coach Quinn actually told me the week of London so I was excited that whole week. He made it a point to tell me during meetings to get prepared and get ready to hold onto that ball and secure my job. That's what I had planned to do once I got back in anyways. It was just a joy knowing that I was going to be back with the team and that I had the team relying on me again for that job. It helped me out a lot with my confidence. In London, I took one back to the 40. That just builds confidence.

While I was sitting out Coach Coughlin and my running backs coach (Jerald Ingram) kept telling me to get ready and stay prepared. Then once I got back I had to work my way back to be the primary returner because Reuben (Droughns) was the primary after I had fumbled that one.

In closing, since this is Thanksgiving week I just want everyone out there to know that I'm thankful to be a Giant. I have kids to take care of and I'm just thankful to be able to take care of my children and just to have a healthy family. And just to have a healthy body myself. A healthy body for me is only going to bring a longer career for me. That's what I'm thankful for at this point.


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